party at my house, wooooo...

yes, my parents are out of town for the weekend, so me, taty, aida, tina, and nick came over and we drank and had a good ol' time. there was a bit of drama and tina wouldn't get out of nicks' ass for like, two seconds. i finally told him how i felt, about us and all this shit, and him and sarah and all that.

he says he likes her and they're pretty much dating, and all that. but at the same time he likes me too. he says he doesnt know what to think. he's just confused, i guess.

we were flirting and i was trying to get the smirnoff out of his hands, and i started biting him, and then he was biting me too... but did he have to do it so damn sexually... nibbling on my ear, he knows better than that, he knows that drives me nuts. jeez.

i don't know what to think. i'm tired of waiting. but i'm willing to wait.

what me and him had was good. i mean, it wasn't much, but at least it was something, and fuckin ay, i felt close to him. he says he's tired of hiding. so am i.

i dont want to be the one to hold him back from having a relationship with sarah if he likes her. good for her if she doesnt wanna hang around waiting for him. i told him to do something, say something to her, see where it is.

ohh this is so depressing. i really like him a lot. i just want him to be happy, i dont care how fucking sad it is for me. he's my damn good friend, my neighbor, and i'm always gonna be here and he's always gonna be there. so no matter what, we're stuck like that. i just want him to be happy. whether i'm happy or not. end of story.

i havea feeling he's going to choose her. just my opinion on the situation. i didnt' even get a final kiss goodbye or anything.

-roya